7 days

Life is so boring right now. so predictable. I don't have much in common with most of the people in my life. We're never on the same level but I'm still making an effort to be a good friend to those who are still around. I'm trying to be the change I want to see but my efforts to meet and reach out to new people often end up in disappointment or rejection. I don't take rejection seriously. My self-esteem is not effected by it but it's sad to see that most of the people are come across are reluctant to start up conversation given the opportunity. The same is to be said for men. They are also boring and predictable. They're either too passive or too aggressive. They talk about themselves too often. They never act their age. I've sort of become open to the idea of open relationships. I'm convinced it's the only way I won't be bored. I recently found myself being bored with a person I never ever thought I would let go of. It went on for a while, whatever it was but I'm not really sure if the they're concerned with me anymore either. As for the others, I wonder how they feel after I never answer their phone calls or messages. Just cut myself out of their lives completely with no explanation. I just never feel like I owe anyone an explanation after only one week. Thats usually the time constraint on how long I stay interested in one person. One week. Apparently we know instantaneously when we meet someone, whether we could spend the rest of our lives with them, and I'm sure that's true. I'm sure we can spot potential when we see it if our heads aren't clouded with any variables that would sway our judgement but maybe we let some things go on for a little while for our own amusement or pleasure because we have no intention of being serious. I'm sure when I finally find someone who shares similar interests and a similar thought process then it will lengthen. I'm sure I won't remain so apathetic once I find someone who I can take seriously and who is deserving of my time. I can't even take this blog seriously. It feels like another explanation to people whom I don't owe anything. Keep on truckin'.