chilly december

stash of cash. I'm making money @ my new job.
waitressing at a german restaurant,
wearing a beer maid dress and white stockings.
6 days a week.
I'm going to buy a new phone & contract. :)

I need a boy friend.
but I don't need to be in love...

My sister's here. she came here for christmas.
I love her, we have so much fun.
& she doesn't mind sneaking me beers @ bars.

Tonight we poured brandy in our coffee & made fun of how
the sugar container in our house looks like an Urn for ashes.
We stuck a post-it note on it. It reads "great aunt mariel"
then we scattered rose petals around it.
haha. highlight of the the night!

I was given one of Brandon Boyd's books for christmas...White Fluffy Clouds.
Its not what I thought it would be
& I also don't like the way it smells.
The smell of a book matters to me.
I love the smell of most books, and you should if something
is going to be that close to your face for a period of time,
but this one smells off...
I almost hoped it would smell like men's cologne.

My sister gave me "the lovely bones" to read.
I wanted to read it before I see the movie so I'm excited to finish it.
It's very sad and very beautiful.
I love the authors creation of what heaven is like for the main character
in the book.
She made heaven to be this place that reminds me of my dreams...
where some things are familiar but slightly different from reality
& heaven expands to everything you've always wanted and loved
everyones heaven smells of their favorite smell...
and you share your heaven with people that want the same things
but they disappear when they're in a part of their heaven that you both don't share...
fantasticly poetic. I wish i could explain it better
read the book.

My dad gave me a book entitled "but nellie was so nice"
the cover has an illustration of a middle aged woman with a large knife
going through her.
with x's for eyes because she is of course dead.
it's a murder mystery
I got a good laugh when I opened it.


The funniest present I got was a hoodie from my father
that says "I <3 nellie"
Yes my dad had a theme going with my name.
It's a little bit too pretentious and embarrassing to wear in public
really? you <3 yourself?
or maybe people who don't know my name will ask me
"nellie? where is that exactly?"
I'm wearing it right now though, in the seclusion of my bedroom.

My sister and I went to go see Sherlock Holmes tonight
even after she said she was boycotting the film.
She wanted to see Avatar
but I told her i didn't want to see a movie about smurfs.
she finally gave in
& even though she's a die hard fan for the old classic sherlock holmes movies
I don't think she thought it was half bad.
She described it as "entertaining".
and it was.
but of course they build up the sexual tension
between Holmes played by Robert Downey Jr
and his American criminal lover played by Rachel Mcadams.
Then they cruely leave you without a sex scene.
Oh well. I guess some things are better left to the imagination,
but you will not be disappointed by a shirtless muscly Robert Downey Jr.

You're like a blow torch.
And I've just turned you back on.
I like to stare at your pretty blue flame
But I know better than to touch you
Even though I want to
I know you'll burn me the worst.



I'm leaving with nothing else to say.
good night.